Mask
this is where it all begins
i wake up, and i put on a mask
a mask i want people i know to se
i smile, i laugh, i show that i care
i do alot of normal things
go to school, play with my dogs
but later in the day, all that changes
i take off the mask
the mask of a strong person who feels she can do everything on her own
on the inside, deep deep inside
i feel lost and empty and hopeless
all the feelings i hold in everyday
the feelings of no future and what will happen to me
i got yelled at by my dad again
and my mom is working again
i just go to my room, lay donw in bed
i think about what i do, what to do to change my life
should i start drinking, or smoking
drugs could be an escape
my eyes start to water
i could kill myself
take a bullet to my head, tie a rope to my neck
i think of a death letter
the people i would hurt
i start to cry lounder and louder
and cry myself ot sleep
the next day, just anouther day
i put on my mask for anouther painful day
Moments like this, I wish I could have a long fucking drag on a good fucking cigarette.
And I don’t even smoke much at all.
i heard them before i saw them.
i remember rounding the corner, running my fingers through immaculately manicured shrubbery and thinking how childhood happiness sounds the same in any language. i slowed my pace as a young girl flew by me to join her friends carouseling in the wind-blown mist of a fountain. i walked slow and smiled a smile of a man growing older and remembering the lightness of youth.
My cousin finally visited me from Japan! He’s in the marines, and we haven’t seen each other in 2 yearssss. It sucks how he’s staying for like a week, but whatever! At least he served our country and survived. It’s been a while, and he still gives me kisses, calls me/treats me as his “baby cousin”, and gives me the tightest hugs ever… ugh. :(
I’m cherishing our gif moment, LOL<3
this bitch be on some incest shit
…. wow.. I’d have to agree on this though.. looks like they’re dating wtf………..
what… O_O
BONER.
